Flying on Instruments

There’s a ton of science fiction out there that loves to play with our perceptions of reality…like the ending sequence of Men In Black with the world being on a marble that a giant alien is playing with, or later looking out of the locker door at a giant bus station. Its interesting to give ourselves some mental gymnastics with the concept, but at the end of the day, most of us who consider ourselves reasonable will laugh it off.

In the last week, I’ve been led to do some spiritual gymnastics with the concept, though. Our world and environments are so observable, so testable. We’re obsessed with what we can measure and analyze in our industrialized culture…which leads to the Tillichian explanation that our cultural angst results in the fact that we cannot reconcile our more abstract spiritual life with our touchable physical environment.

But what if, as Lewis claims, the spiritual environment is actually much more real?

We tend to not be able to see past our stuff because we’ve deified science, which is so horribly limited, and so we can’t see past what we can touch, taste, and test. We’ve even attempted to reduce the spiritual abstract to a science with this sketchy little endeavor called theology. Similarly, we’ve reduced the complexity of the human intelligence and soul to the science of psychology. Both sciences are useful to a point, but somewhere we’ve made them their own point…sort of like doing art for art’s sake. When that happens, we’ve missed the point. We can’t simply analyze people or God, we must enter relationships with them if we are to know them. We can’t hold them at arms’ length and claim any accurate knowledge or experience. We do well to claim that in the midst of them.

I’ve become strikingly convinced in the last week that what we see as tangible is only a frame of reference, a perception. What we physically interact with is only a result of the vastly larger spiritual realm we’ve convinced ourselves into thinking is much smaller than it is, or even secondary. Or, in the cases of some, even non-existent. Ask anyone who has encountered a ghost, or an angel. They’ll happily tell you the spiritual realm exists. Its just that our analytical, scientific little minds can’t perceive it.

Tillich would say that this is where the artist is superior, because they are almost always separated from mathematical formulae. I don’t think it is a case of superiority, or that the awareness of the spiritual falls to the artist alone. I think a bit of open-mindedness and introspection would lead most of us there. And, once we arrived, I imagine our lives would be irrevocably altered.

Perhaps, though, this is why many never make the leap.

Unfaithful to Education

The nation’s most literate cities have recently been ranked, with some surprises in the rankings. Karen and I were talking about this this morning, and our opinion is that the criteria of highest education level per capita has much to do with this ranking. Take cities like Boston, for example, that have huge student populations. Or Atlanta, whose current population explosion is marked mostly by an influx of young professionals with higher education.

While I don’t live in a city with a large enough population to make this Central Connecticut State University study, I do live in a relatively large city with 7 colleges and/or universities, which is actually a large number considering the overall population of the city. We’re also, unfortunately, in the middle of the “Bible Belt,” and I’ve noticed that, for some tragic reason, faith and literacy have become counter-intuitive to each other. There’s this underlying thought process, at least in this area, that Believers should only be reading books by “Christian authors” (which, by the way, are usually of pathetically low quality, although there are exceptions), and are afraid to explore the themes of great literary works, because they are afraid of being “offended” by them. The result: ignorant Believers. Ignorant Believers are the most dangerous kind. They paint our God in such a poor light. What’s worse, I’ve met so many Believers that are poorly read in the Scriptures as well, because, they reason, they’ll read modern Christian pop-culture-self-help bestsellers, and let a minister explain the Scriptures to them on Sunday mornings.

God help us.

So, those with whom I can best discuss art and literature are often those hostile to my faith. That makes life difficult, to say the least. It should be quite the opposite.

I don’t think this is necessarily a nationwide trend (I certainly hope its not); its just what I’ve observed in the four years I’ve lived in the southern U.S. That doesn’t make it any less disturbing, though.

Illiterate Christ-followers in a largely illiterate country. Is there anything more frightening than that?

A Bit of Reflection to Wrap Up the Year

We don’t do a lot of gaudy light-show decorations for Christmas…somehow I think that cheapens the observance. What we do put up, we typically leave up until New Year’s Day. I’m actually not sure why, except that my family always did that…perhaps even I’m a bit prone to traditions. I like that it keeps the observance of the holiday in mind as you begin the New Year, though.

So, Saturday morning as I wake up and try somewhat successfully to think straight after half a cup of coffee, I find myself staring (blankly at first) at the tree in our living room. Specifically, I’m looking at the decorations on it. Other than relatively minimal lighting and so forth, all of our decorations are memories from our pasts: gift ornaments from family and friends, old co-workers from my first professional job out of college, gift ornaments from my parents from when I was a kid, even gift ornaments from my old restaurant job while I was in school. They date back to childhood: ornaments from vacations, from projects. Star Wars ornaments to indicate that I am, in fact, one of those nerds. My wife has a similar collection, and that is mostly what hangs on our tree.

So, me being me, I have to ask why; why do we hang this stuff on our tree, or even put a tree up? What’s the purpose of the tradition? Well, obviously I know that the Christmas tree was originally a pagan symbol that we’ve tried to Christianize through the centuries. But as I think of the ornaments that we hang on them, I think they’re really important, because I can look at any of those ornaments, and it takes me back to where I was and who I was with when I received it; sometimes it’s like I’m transported back there for a moment. A bit Tillichian, perhaps, but true. There isn’t a single ornament on the tree (from my end) that I can’t specifically remember the people and circumstances involved in my receiving or purchasing it.

Much wisdom, I think, lies in the concept that we must know where we come from in order to plan where we are going. I’ve never dwelt a lot on the past, but I do maintain a knowledge of it, because it is my heritage…it is part of what has made me who I am. To be able to reflect on that as we dream about the upcoming year, I think, is a good thing.

See you in 2008.

Exaggerated Expectations

I’ve lost count of how many times today I’ve heard someone in the family express how disappointed they were because they felt as though the day just hadn’t gone the way they had planned…how Christmas just seemed to have slipped by…how it somehow just didn’t feel like Christmas.

It leads me to wonder why we place such enormous and unrealistic expectations on this one day out of the year. We expect that it has to be this perfect, Utopian 24 hours of peace, family joy, and bliss, and then we’re horribly disappointed when it doesn’t come through. Sort of like wedding days: months of planning and hyper-stressed-out people attempting to create the perfect day, somehow remaining dissociated from the fact that something will go wrong. No matter how hard we try, how much we plan, or how much unrealistic stress we place on ourselves, something about Christmas day or the week or the season will go wrong. Its a given. So why stress?

During a break in the family festivities on Christmas Eve, Karen and I were watching an episode of Everybody Loves Raymond. In the episode, Raymond was giving a wedding toast. He talked about how family always goes wrong. Usually in a bizarre way. But, when we play the movie of memories back in our heads from that day, we edit out the bad parts. We cling to the good.

I’m an amateur videographer. I love making family movies of the holidays. There are things that go wrong while I’m taping. I edit that footage out when I’m making the finished product. That’s life. We edit out the bad memories, and we cling to the good, because that good…that hope…is ultimately a symbol of what we celebrate on Christmas.

Yet we miss so much of the joy of that celebration because we want to make it something it can’t be: perfect. We lose the joy to the stress. Now if that isn’t a microcosm of American life, I don’t know what is.

Feliz Navidad.

Reflective Randomness

I’m an introvert. That probably takes no one by surprise. Ironically, though, I can be an extremely social person, and I love spending time with my friends. Last night, Karen and I went to the theatre with some friends, and hung out at a coffee shop afterward until late hours, and I loved it. At the end of the day, though, in order for me to recharge, I need to be alone, often for an extended period of time. If I socialize for too long, I get annoyed with people and start thinking of them in derogatory ways. So, I’ve learned to know my limits.

So, this afternoon, while my wife was at work, I wandered over to the local Barnes and Noble to do some reading. I didn’t know anyone there, nor did I particularly want to. I wanted to read and be left alone. Partly for that reason, and partly because the music that was playing in the store was horrible, I was happy to plug my iPod into my ears and provide my own background music, removing the distraction of other noises and allowing me to focus on my reading.

It’s interesting, though, to watch people interact and go about their business without sound. People talking with friends at tables, other people flying solo like me that were just there for the coffee and books. Its fascinating to observe others’ nonverbals. After all, a good writer is a good observer of life.

What was funnier, though, is that, as I was absorbed in the photo-essay I was reading in the Georgia Review, there were two men that sat down behind me. Since the only real reading I was doing at the time was of captions, I was mostly looking at images. But the sound-bytes of conversation I picked up between songs made for curious commentary. I think they were closing a business deal. Against the mental backdrop of photos from Iraq, however, it was funny…in an offbeat, gallows-humor sort of way.

See? There’s all sorts of experiences that you can’t appreciate if you don’t isolate yourself every now and then.

I’m still curious, though, why that girl was wearing a Santa cap…