You know, there are times when I find this strange peace, kind of an eccentric happiness in the middle of my chaos.
Sort of like how it’s almost 1:00, and I have to be up in a few hours, but for some reason, I’m not stressed out about this.
Or how I am completely and totally overwhelmed with papers and projects and mid-terms…almost more than one human being is capable of accomplishing. If you throw a couple of jobs and planning a wedding on top of that, it’s a miracle I keep my sanity.
But I just sort of realized tonight, that, as much as I’m prone to complain, that I really enjoy being a student. I think that, perhaps, part of the reason I’m happier is because I’ve had an opportunity to write this weekend, so I don’t have all this creativity pent up inside me looking for an outlet that I don’t have time to give. Maybe it also has to do with the fact that I kind of am beginng to see the things in my life as a universal creative outlet, which is a perspective that tends to get ripped away from me when I’m in the midst of my cacophonous schedule.
Or, maybe I’m just rambling incoherently, and just really need some sleep.
Yeah, maybe that’s it.
Okay. Good night!
I have moments like this, too, where I’m faced with a situation that where I should be groaning and/or gnashing my teeth. But for some unexplained reason, I see the humorous side. I figure it’s due to biorythums on the rise.
Yep, I’m serious. We can’t be angry, sad or confused about life all the time. Just like one can’t remain in a prolonged state of fear.
;-P