It’s a disturbing world out there

Thank you to all of you who have kept me in your prayers. God hasn’t revealed everything about my current situation to me yet, but He’s certainly given me a feeling of amazing peace about this week, at least. Sometimes, that’s enough.

So, I’m feeding my news addiction tonight, and the big news is that Michael Jackson (go ahead, roll your eyes and groan) is moving to some foreign country that I probably could pronounce if it was important enough to me, and that there’s no legal way that he could be exported back to the U.S. if there should ever be another child that comes forward with accusations again…

And, all the evidence is looking pretty strong against that guy who was seen in the surveillance video outside the car wash with the girl that got killed in Florida…

And a guy and girl in Pennsylvania got into an argument with her parents (’cause they had been out all night), and the guy shot both of her parents, while her younger sister watched! They just caught the guy this morning, and don’t know if the girl was an accomplice or not.

I’ve reported enough and worked in healthcare long enough to have encountered some pretty wild things and seen things that have made me stagger. But I literally feel sick at my stomach when I think about this. Seriously, it breaks my heart. I can’t understand how a human being could do that to another person, how we could be capable of something that horrific.

I mean, I know the academic reasons. Clinically, I understand that it’s classified as an antisocial personality disorder, or can be because of various mood or psychotic disorders, depending. Theologically, I understand that it’s all because of the Fall, and because we’re all infected by the original sin. But emotionally, I cannot understand it. I can’t wrap my brain around this. I almost want to ask, what have we become? But we’ve been this all along.

I guess when I think about how tainted and twisted we are as fallen humans, and the aweful, detestable things that any of us are capable of at any time, it makes it all the more astounding to me that Jesus didn’t change His mind and come down off the cross. Just say, bump it, wipe out the whole batch and start over. Because by rights, He should have.

My pastor spoke about the forgiving of 10,000 talents this past Sunday in Matthew, and that that many talents was an absurdly large number to make a point. He forgave us of a debt so enormous that we can’t comprehend it’s vastness. And if He never gave us anything else, He’s given us more than we could ask for.

See what I get for being a news junkie?

In other news, Monday is over! Thank goodness!!!!!!